hello all. i'm here... i'm near by camp penalton right now, having a breezy time. we've been having quite a few operations for special sea and anchor detail, and some LCU ops (the wwII boats that are used to go to the shore lines). my training for ship maintenance tonight was cancelled so i got a little extra time to play on the computer right now. tomorrow's schedule is looking to be as long as these past two days have been. and i've got a few pre-quals that i have to take care of. tonight i'll probably be relaxing at sammy's shop, but what i really want is to be home right now.

the ship's doctor isn't being of much help right now. he says that my bones that are cracking are caused by the muscles rubbing against the ligaments. noooo. really doc? and then he gave me a shot to numb up my back spinal muscle; his excuse was that a needle shot should help the muscle relaxe some. then him and one of the coreman were trying to think of which had the chiropractics - balboa or dry side base. so i guess that's what i could do when i get back to san dog. but for now, since i've exceeded my month of light duty, i'm on full duty with the recommedation that i take it easy. gee thanks navy. and good grief... mwr's ship tv is showing an old amy grant and ace of base video. they were also showing holes, mission impossible (one), mr. deeds, and original sin. but then again it's always a movie hour and oddity videos. well i'm going to get going here, some other people in my division wants to use the shop's computer.

so i saw dad today. it was a quick visit in which he still found time to talk to grandparent's neighbors rather than me for a bit. but we had an interesting talk about how us girls aren't against him, i.e. attacking him. but we don't want anything to do with sherry this year or more.

anyway. i'm back at home now, with sis and mum. were fixing on going to the movies and having some meatloaf. gots to go now though... while i'm underway i'll be writing here still... cheers

ps. the deck divisions (my ship) was so nice that they treated us to free pizza, soda, and bowling. i was quite a nice afternoon, i even beat brian at a game of bowl. i'm soo good, or lucky, being that i haven't bowled in about a year or so. LOL

happy halloween

i'm reading my dad's email to my mom right now. it's a little disturbing because a lot of it is childish. dad says that twiste tite owes him money from the stock, and that they're holding his machines. but of course, he hasn't a single written document proving all this, plus, twiste tite is broke. then he says that his labor attorney is telling him that he can go after the x-owner of the company. then he says that he had a few weeks vacation pay due, which is bull. i know he got his 2 weeks, and bonus deal to leave the company. and his dad will continue to pay mom and maybe their insurance will still be good. and he's obviously loving his unemployed life right now, because he's saying he has enough money to last about 2 months. so he's ovbviously in no rush looking for a job. then he says that he'd like to talk about splitting the assets, and taking care of the 2000 taxes - which mom's been advised by a lot of lawyers not to do so. and the only asstes that he'd be thinking of is the house.
he also thinks that mom's turned us against him. that's a crock. he hardly calls. it took a car accident to get him to call me. and oh my, sonya won't return his emails. emails. how impersonal can a father be?

speaking of car accidents. i saw physical therapist lt. goodwig today. she might be wanting to start me on chirotherapy or something, being how i've told her about my back and hip easily cracking a lot, and from what she viewed from my muscles. but i'm going underway on monday - nov. 3rd to the 20th. were going to san francisco, which will be an interesting small trip. i always have liked my trips that i've made in northern cali, and it'll be nice to get away from the fires, or should i say rain and snow now. crazy weather we're having here boys, it's a terrorist attack i tell you. mother nature has turned into a terrorist. LOL. anyway. i'll still be able to play with the computer up in rainbow world, and even download pictures there too. right now i'm going to bed... goodnight.

i'm at san dog right now for a fine duty day. i spent half of it at the physical therapy. and then now i'm spending the rest on the computer. we obviously don't have to paint over the side of the ship right now because the smoke's so thick and a lot of ash is falling down. when i passed by one of the drains to the ocean it was filled with logs, and ash. really gross stuff. have to use a stinken medical mask just to be outside. and the really bad part is that you get really dirty quick because of the ash.

anyway, my family and i are lucky that are homes didn't get burnt down like some people that i know. the ship has given everyone except for the people that have duty today, so that they can evacuate if they have to. i'm quite tired cause of the late train ride, so i'll probably spend my duty day sleeping. after my watch that is.

And so the fires here in San Bernardino and San Antonio Heights are looking to finally calm down. But when I go to my second home in San Diego County tonight, there will be fires there. It’s quite worrisome, but my family and I are thankfully not too close to these fires; even if we are able to drive 10 blocks up to see the hilltop fires. My nose has been stuffed up and sneezing because of so much ash and smoke in the air. The sidewalks are caked with ash. It looks like a child had too much fun on the sidewalks with the black chalk.

It’s about 9pm right now. in an hour i have to leave the comfort of my mom's home. i talked to dad today cause he left a rude message today. He called me yesterday once on my cell phone, and then today's message was like 'if you have enough respect you'll return my calls.' i don't know where the plural came from since he hardly calls me at all. And if he does it's cause grandma asked about me. Speaking of grandma, I forgot to call her this weekend. Even though it isn't an excuse, I just didn't find time. The real reason is that lately my mind has been absent minded lately. And just to tell my dad's family about how I feel about dad's childish behavior, let alone dad, is just quite hard for me right now at the time.

Half an hour. I don't want to go back to san dog. This sucks. This is crazy. This is crazy. This is crazy. This is crazy. Crazy. And I’ve noticed now how insane I’ve been with my money. I’ve been buying books and cds, when I’ve already got about 50 of these (unread or hardly listened to) at home, and I’m still readying like 10 books.
The rooms look different now that we've got rid of the bunk bed that fell apart cause dad never fixed it. And I would've, but I wouldn't know where to start. So are neighbor's now has the old fallen apart beds, while we have my sister's old beds.

Well.... I’m going to continue to pack up. Hopefully when I get back to my ship I’ll be able to play with the computer there.

and so i'm home and able to relaxe, and use the computer. two things i haven't done for 2 weeks now. hmmm... my sisters are here right now, and they want to go to a halloween party. but one of my sis's doesn't have a costume. but neither do i. well.. these right here might be a little too sexy for the party...

Hello everyone. I’m alive. Graciously alive. And quite busy lately.

I was in a car accident about a month ago. It was a horrific one too. My friend was driven about 10 or so miles over the speed limit on the freeway, and about to drive onto a clover leaf on ramp from one highway to another. Well my friend downshifted his gears, thus skipping a gear, and looking up both the gears and back tire. He lost control of the car and it went off the ramp, and down the hill for about 30 or so feet. The car flipped over about 3 times before hitting a tree. All’s I could think about at that time was please make it stop. The car landed on the passenger side (I was on that side, backseat), which was wear the car got the most damage, even though it's a total disaster - no other cars were involved luckily. And so since I was able to kind of crawl out the back window, and about 20 or so minutes later I was taken to a trauma hospital in san dog, because my back and neck felt numb, and I was kind of in shock (but still speaking, etc).
I’m a lucky girl cause I only got multiple muscle strain from my hip to my neck, my two friends who were in the car are fine. The doctors at the hospital (who ironically were navy - can't get away from military life it seems) said that the shoulder strap seat belt saved my friends and I from serious injury.

So that is that part of what I’ve been up to... and going to physical therapy, then skating for about 3 or so hours after the appointments. I mean really, my LPO doesn't need to know the exact time of my therapy. So instead of coming to the ship right after the appointment, I’d relax at downtown. Sneaky I know... my back... well there's good days and bad days. I’d try and just do simple twist stretches to my back, and my back would pop, a lot. So my back, hip, and neck are quite easy to pop. But the doctors that took those MRI, X-ray and CAT scan back at the trauma hospital said the results were all negative.

And I’m able to come home this weekend (right now) and next weekend before we leave for Cabo San Lucas. That’ll be interesting, but it'll be more interesting to see if our ship would actually be able to make it there... our latest "training practice" was a real laugh. We were a day or little more late in leaving, and it took the engineers almost 30 times to light the 2 boiler flames. Reason... they had contractors take the boilers apart, and enlisted members build it back together. There were extra parts, and welded parts. It was bad. But it runs; minus some lube pole leaks, etc.

So I’ll come back again this weekend here...
cheers
~sailor "broken" Michelle

Oh and then there's my dad and mum. Dad’s lost his job, and is having disputes with that company he worked for. Plus he's hardly given mum any money. Yes, they're legally separated, but this does not give dad an excuse to give mom only 250 a month for the mortgage, bills and her medical... she's not been feeling good and the doc's just found that she has crown disease. I’m quite worrisome here in Cali. I’ve been trying to help mom financially, but she's been working on finding dad's salary from twist tite and the business that he owns... t and t machine. I know dad has a lot of money right now, and money saved up, but he's being stingy, and trying to do the divorce on his terms. He even got made at mom when she filed the legal separation, saying that HE was going to do that, and then threatens with the whole; well I guess you don't need my medical benefits. My dad's a real control freak, so whenever he doesn't get his way, he gets mad. Like how he's mad at me cause I’m not an email person, making him actually calling me. Since this past month n a half, I’ve received only three phone calls from him. Two of the times were when I was in that accident, and the 3rd, last weekend when he lost his job. So yaw, it's been a real trivial time here in Cali.

this is a test to see if my family members still remember this website. but if they do then they'll just need to understand that this is the way that i vent here....

so yes, in a way i'm back from this sort of hiding, even though i still wrote in my navy_goddess site. and so lets see... i've been quite stressed out these past couple of weeks. my thoughts keep juggling around. like right now i'm thinking about this mood ring on my middle finger (won't fully fight on my finger, it's just half way on). i've started thinking about this ring instead of telling you all xangazins about how the navy is joyfully screwing me right now. dillon, who looks like he's about to fall asleep here, asked about my small ring. told him how i found it on the ship here, you can find quite a lot of nik-naks laying about on the floor or on the lounge couch etc etc. and so he said that he'd hate to see the person who's finger is too small for my finger, as it won't even fit on mine. and dillon just said it's not dillon, it's micheal. but i'm writing his last name in anyways.

i have a dress blues inspection tomorrow. and they need to be washed. it was supposed to be today, but i explained that it was in my divisions shop, still packed up in my luggage. oh well, life goes on so to speak.

cheers...

btw this is my friend bob here. he was quite excited to be going on his first west pack (8 month deployement), but now, well the poor guy doesn't like it all too much at all. hehehehe. poor thing thought it'd be fun... mwhwhahahaha