December 25, 2003

• xmas eve. should be a merry time. for me it was just a blah eve, and then speratic depressions. my dad had a cancerous tumor in his kidney, and made an appointment to have it removed just this past monday, and is in recovering. so he never made it for the xmas dinner, but the worst part is that because of my dad's childish tantrums, he didn't want us girls to visit him at the hospitol because he thinks we don't want a relationship with him. and more drama, and more. his mom's taking his side of course. so it's not looking like i'll be seeing my dad before i go on deployement on jan. 12th, and the ammo onload from jan 5th to the 9th. this is all my dad's doing. we do call him, but when we want to talk about how we feel, and how we're upset with him, he lies and says we'll talk about that some other time. just like he's lied these past years about taking me to learn how to drive in his car. lies. all lies.
  

  very depressing masl xmas. but i'm going to shed these drama skins away from me and have a great remley xmas day. and tonight i'll be dreaming of these guys (and probably bo, as i've always seemed to somehow been dreaming of him lately. don't know why)....

  
  

  Faramir (David Wenham)
  Legolas (Orlando Bloom) (rather than viggo - who is just a few years younger than my mom, and bloom is close to my age)

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