work sucked today. and i found out some bad news…. i have to work on new years eve… so really i have two and a half days to spend at home. then i have the 4th off, so i can use that time to do shopping for west pack, etc. i hate work i hate work i hate work. did i mention that i hate work. and plus i have duty tomorrow, which means that i have to stay on this devil’s ship for 24hours. did i mention how much i hate work? WITH A PASSION. and now i have to go to the navy exchange to get my e3 patches put on all my shirts to replace my e2′s. this sucks… but shopping takes care of that.. i have a bunch of gift certificates to through away…

i’m back in san diego. i’ve got to work tomorrow, which sucks. jim’s calculated our days left on land for about one week left, then it’s off to the gulf…. i don’t want to leave………

i’m home again this weekend. i saw cold mountain last night. i thought it was a pretty good movie. not as good as lord of the rings, but i thought it was good movie. jude was a very hot – minus the beard… maybe some cornie parts to it, but still good.

and last night my mom’s fam (including aunt and co. from washington) and i went to gramma’s house, and ordered good ol’ pizza and chicken strips. my cousin from long beach came over with her son. and today the big fam is going boiling. but first i have to get my stuff ready for when i leave tonight, and i have to clean my room… cheers..

my bo is back in the xanga world. he and my family have been helping me a lot through dad’s horrible drama right now. my dad’s been a real bastard lately, and today’s phone conversation left us in bad terms…. dad believes that he’s never been in the wrong and he was even trying to blame me for a lot of his actions… like him not coming to san dog, regardless if i’ve invited him or not – which i have invited him.

xmas eve. should be a merry time. for me it was just a blah eve, and then speratic depressions. my dad had a cancerous tumor in his kidney, and made an appointment to have it removed just this past monday, and is in recovering. so he never made it for the xmas dinner, but the worst part is that because of my dad’s childish tantrums, he didn’t want us girls to visit him at the hospitol because he thinks we don’t want a relationship with him. and more drama, and more. his mom’s taking his side of course. so it’s not looking like i’ll be seeing my dad before i go on deployement on jan. 12th, and the ammo onload from jan 5th to the 9th. this is all my dad’s doing. we do call him, but when we want to talk about how we feel, and how we’re upset with him, he lies and says we’ll talk about that some other time. just like he’s lied these past years about taking me to learn how to drive in his car. lies. all lies.

very depressing masl xmas. but i’m going to shed these drama skins away from me and have a great remley xmas day. and tonight i’ll be dreaming of these guys (and probably bo, as i’ve always seemed to somehow been dreaming of him lately. don’t know why)….

Faramir (David Wenham)
Legolas (Orlando Bloom) (rather than viggo – who is just a few years younger than my mom, and bloom is close to my age)

update 11pm, thank you everyone for sending me xmas cards. i’ll be sending mine pronto. i’ve been quite busy with going on leave and being with my family. i’m blessed right now to spend time with my cousins and aunt from washington, whom i haven’t seen for about 4 years… i’m blessed right now. minus the fact that i have 5 days left of leave (vacation). then it’s back to san dog.

2:56 pm: my way right now to see lord of the rings for the 3rd time, with my cousins.

i’m home. home sweet home. and i found the cd that max burned for me with all my pictures. lot of play things… *innocent look*

and the first thing (besides eating some of mom’s homemade cookie dough, and the pizza sis ordered) was my sisters and i went to a bar for just one drink, and they allowed smoking indoors; which in san dog, there is no smoking inside bars, etc. it’s good to be home.

i’m going home. i’m on leave right now. jim and i were going to go home about 2 hours ago, but he ended up taking a half hour nap, and now here i am playing with the computer. i’m going home. home till the 27th. and i’ve got a shit load of clothes to bring back. and i’ve spent almost 200 dollors for my uniforms and stuff for this seabag inspection for january 5th.

btw since the lord of the rings has been released, i’ve now seen that movie twice so far. so far.

at work right now. last night i had 2 or so hours of sleep because i saw a movie that’s worth having only 2 hours of sleep for work the next day…. lotr: return of the king. i loved that movie. i might see it again tonight, but it was really crowded at the theatre that i went to last night… it was a good movie, even if it was 3 1/2 hours long. but i enjoyed every minute of it. and now i’ve got about 100 more pages to ready of return of the king…

so right now i have time to kill, cause i am doing a computer checkup thingy. then at 1400 there’s the co’s call on the flightdeck. my friend dillon said fuck, the orders came in today. we’re both wondering the purpose of the computer programs that we’re supposed to be working on. i haven’t a clue… all’s i know is that i’ll be home thursday night. but tonight i’ve got to go get some uniform stuff…

i’ve got duty on a sunday. work on a sunday. i’ve been able to just chill today, and take a nap, whatch tv, and my friend jim came by with some food. it’s a little drizzly right now, and i have the 4 to 8 am peir sentury watch tomorrow. hopefully it won’t still be raining. i’ve got to pick up my 9mm at about 3:30am, which means i should go to bed soon, but nick, drew and i are watching black sheep, and then meet the parents will be on; before that was for richer or poorer. tv, such the devil…