November 8, 2002
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my parents are still on my case right now. but at least they've mellowed out somewhat because of how i'm sick right now. well i'm kinda not feeling good right now, but i'm exagerating it so that i didn't have to go to the gym yesterday or today, and so that i can at least sleep in some to get over this little cold quickly.
so this week has been an interesting week... and it's still clicking. christ.
lets see... monday = school - i was late, tuesday = hell, but i ended up hanging out with rick at the end.. wendesday = went to school early so that i can do some group projuct stuff... yesterday, well i am kinda feeling odd - not sick sick, but my head's feeling all off right now, and so is my stomach. i don't know what it is... hmm. and so i've been telling rents that i'm not feeling good, so they quite giving me their lectures about how i need to start getting ready for boot camp that's two months from now = they're lectures and approach - feeding me negativity will encourage me to turn around and prove them wrong, they've always done that approach. and sometimes it hurts real bad.
so that's that. i'll write more later on maybe this weekend if i'm not feeling beat up
and drawned out still... which is why these posts have been so dule... *sigh* i so want to go out and rent a movie or something.. but argg... rent's started talking about renting a movie, then they're like, not right now. *rolls eyes* shesh.
army of me // bjork
Stand up
You've got to manage
I won't sympathize
Anymore.
And if you complain once more
You'll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You'll meet an army of me
You're alright
There's nothing wrong
Self-sufficience please!
And get to work.
And if you complain once more
You'll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You'll meet an army of me
Army of me
You're on your own now
We won't save you
Your rescue-squad
Is to exhausted
And if you complain once more
You'll meet an army of me
*another good moto song for me right now*
Comments (3)
I hope you feel better
Hope you feel better. There seems to be a nasty bug going around everyone I know - both locally and online. I hope it's not spread by electrons, or we're all screwed.
I know what you mean about the pre-boot camp negativity. I caught a lot of that from my grandparents, who I lived with for about a year before I joined up. They kept going on and on about how I would never make it in the Army and would come crawling back home, begging to be taken back in. The bastiges.
You see, their precious daughter - my worthless aunt - tried to join the Corps and failed miserably. She washed out in less than two weeks. And if their PRECIOUS couldn't do it, there's no way in hell that I could do it.
Well, their taunts worked - but not in the way they thought. I did make it through boot camp, and left the Army with an honorable discharge and several decorations three years later. But I did not come back 'home' to this podunk little town for another 10 years after that. And when I did, I came back strong, independant, and driven to succeed. I wound up being the one that other family members come crawling to when they need help. The difference is, I never make them crawl.
But I digress. I know that you will do well in the Service because you have the traits that make a good soldier (or sailor, in this case). Don't let the 'rents let you down, and don't worry overly much that you have something to prove to them. You have nothing to prove. You have only to live your life well, with lots of love and laughter, no matter which course you choose to plot through it. If you stay true to yourself, the chances are that years for now the people that are denigrating you will by envying you.
Wow - that was a much longer comment than I initially intended. Your situation just kind of resonated with me.
Get well, be well, and do the right thing for you.
Morgoth.
Yeah, like everyone else said, hope you feel better.
I know exactly how you feel about using your parents negativity towards you as a spark for your fuel to achieve greater and better things. Just don't let it get too out of control.
My parents were like that and I pretty much left to be on my own for a bit and learned that life is a lot harder than anything your parents could give you. They only mean well, it just doesn't always come out right.
*hugs* hope things go really well though and you do prove them wrong that you can do it...and even if you don't, as long as you tried...that's all that really matters.
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